Today, I’m so so afraid. I’m scared of Your plans for me – for us – because I don’t want to fail You. I’m terrified I would disappoint You and this community. You and I both know my strengths but also my weaknesses. I pray for faith and courage, Lord – faith that You are in me, using me to do Your will; courage that I listen to and obey the Holy Spirit’s voice. I know there are greater things to come to this area because You are here. You are here just as You are in New York City. You are the same God who was with us at NYCUP as You are at Skidmore. We are Your hands and feet. Speak to us and use us.
I pray and lift all these things in Jesus’ name,
Today, my supervisor came to talk to me about NYCUP. Yes, the same NYCUP I was at this summer. She wants me to attend the spring break plunge as professional development because she wants something like that here. Apparently, Catholic Charities does an Urban Plunge in Albany, NY (NYCUP is also on that list). It’s good news, right? Right. I’m excited, but (augh) at the same time, I’m scared. SO SCARED, and I don’t know why. Doubt and fear envelop my brain when I heard this. It’s overwhelming. “Is this what Your plan is? Am I supposed to be scared like this?” Ah the Lord (OMG)! Praying… hard. Listening. Discerning. Holy Spirit, speak to me.