Taking the plunge.

God,

Today, I’m so so afraid. I’m scared of Your plans for me – for us – because I don’t want to fail You. I’m terrified I would disappoint You and this community. You and I both know my strengths but also my weaknesses. I pray for faith and courage, Lord – faith that You are in me, using me to do Your will; courage that I listen to and obey the Holy Spirit’s voice. I know there are greater things to come to this area because You are here. You are here just as You are in New York City. You are the same God who was with us at NYCUP as You are at Skidmore. We are Your hands and feet. Speak to us and use us.

I pray and lift all these things in Jesus’ name,
Amen.

Today, my supervisor came to talk to me about NYCUP. Yes, the same NYCUP I was at this summer. She wants me to attend the spring break plunge as professional development because she wants something like that here. Apparently, Catholic Charities does an Urban Plunge in Albany, NY (NYCUP is also on that list). It’s good news, right? Right. I’m excited, but (augh) at the same time, I’m scared. SO SCARED, and I don’t know why. Doubt and fear envelop my brain when I heard this. It’s overwhelming. “Is this what Your plan is? Am I supposed to be scared like this?” Ah the Lord (OMG)! Praying… hard. Listening. Discerning. Holy Spirit, speak to me.

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am i to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.
– Marianne Williamson

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One thought on “Taking the plunge.

  1. Sometimes we fear failure. We think someone else is more qualified, would be better at the task set before us. He qualifies the called. It is so scarey to step out in faith and put ourselves out there but that is when we rest in His promises and trust in the purpose He has placed in our hearts. Exciting things happen when we put fear in its place and move forward boldly. Thanks for sharing!

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